you have no idea how disappointed i am right now .... it really hurts to be compting on sombody so mutch and than in the middle of the road he lets you go . He doesn't care if you can't keep going without him or don't even know the way how to do it he just LETs YOU GO to save himself ,how disappointing ... But i can't stop thinking that it was my fault in the first beging I was so blind why would I let anyway one speak for me I have my own voice why didn't I say what i wanted to say At least I learned something if you give your voice to someone else you'll be dumb =((
I always wanted to know how it would feel to be free and It's so good no limits no orders no one can tell you what to do or what not to do you're free to do what ever you want the best feeling in the world it's like you're flying without wings and you can feel the air wow i'm so happy ...
They say that when you're a teenager you don't really apriciate your mother and it's true you kinda forget how kind she was to you how many sacrifices she made for you I think that you don't believe that she could give her life for you anymore anyway , what if (GOD forbid) she dies you're hanging out with your friend , you're having fun and you get a phone call you pisk up and it's your father and he goes like that :".......honey it's your mother she had a car accident and .....she died " how would feel then wouldn't you regret everything bad you've donne for her wouldn't you wish you showed her how mutch you LOVED her ...... To me my mother is the most important thing in this whole world she askes me to go to the end of the world to bring her some water i would she askes me to kill my self i would... because nothing i do would repay all of what she did for me I LOVE YOU MUM i love you more than anything <3
WOW it feels so good to know that there's some people that care about you i never expected to be so important to somebody to be missed and to have power to make somebody happy just by being there for him . If only i knew how to pick my friends or how to treat the ones that deserve my love and those who don't but believe me from now on i'm goona try to be the best friend anybody can ever have =))) Because you see i never believed in friendship or having friends that are more precious to you than anyone else but now i don't know what i would do without them . No matter what i'll always love'm <3
So I always thought of posting an article but I guess I never actually did it . What do I have to loose anyway no one can juge me no one knows me and no one has the right to say anything about me. I am an 18 year old girl that has no idea about what's going on around her , don't get me wrong it's not that I didn't try to but I just couldn't figure it out ,I can't really say that I'm lost but I'm use to control everything around me and now I fell like I'M NOT .Anyway let me tell you who I really am . As I said before I am 18 so you can say that I am a tennage drama queen and you'd be right I am i have a beautiful famelly well we have our own problems but who doesn't , but even if my familly is the weirdest familly ever I'll always know that no matter what happens they're always gonna be there for me =)) my friends are just awesome i'm so grateful for having them i can't imagine my life without them they're always there for me when i need them i learned so many things from them and had so mutch with them and not only that i wouldn't be who i am today without them they thought me that life is so mutch better when shared , that friends to some people is the only getaway when you're felling down lost or ALONE <3 Now me , well it's true that without these people i wouldn't be ME but how about my own experiences I often think about what my would be like when I grow up and you know what why don't I worry about now and leave tomorrow for the future me lol and for now i am totally and completely satisfied and i hope nothing changes ^^